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Ok so that gif set being reblogged of Harry noticing a fan holding up a sign about Harry's hair w/ Taylor Swift pic in the corner, is it just me or is Harry making a hand gesture like he's scratching his beard? I dunno it sure looks like it but either way its funny to think about LMAO.



You’re talking about this, yes?



That could most definitely be taken as a beard innuendo. WILD

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New merch idea: 1D aerobic video à la Shady Warehouse.

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What bad luck harry has, randomly tweeting a random thing that ends up linking to videos of mostly naked gay men. Imagine being cursed like that? God. Poor guy.

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"#how many times can harry out himself in the span of one week #the limit does not exist" He is ready to kick that closet door open so hard omg.



I mean..







And I’m sitting here like


Harry be like:

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Uhm so when you google Shady Warehouse the first two things that pop up are


Screen cap of beginning of the second one


So uhm…. Harry…..

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Fic: Wear It Like A Crown (10/12)

Harry/Louis (background: Liam/Zayn, past Harry/Zayn as friends-with-benefits, Niall/Barbara)NC-17~11’000 words for Chapter 10, ~99k so far, an estimate ~120k words overall

AU. As part of a team of fixers hired to handle a gay scandal in Buckingham Palace, Louis expects Prince Harry to be a lot of things—most notably a royally spoilt brat. Never mind that the very same Prince Harry used to star in quite a number of Louis’ teenage fantasies.
[Part 1] [Part 2] [Part 3] [Part 4] [Part 5] [Part 6][Part 7] [Part 8] [Part 9] [Part 10]
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[Soundtrack on 8tracks] and notes below the cut.
[Chapter 1]
1. Matchbox 20 - How Far We’ve Come
 “Excuse me,” Harry muttered.
With that, he pushed to his feet and left the room as quickly as he could without breaking into an actual run. He bumped into a servant outside the room, ducked around the startled woman with a quick apology and took refuge in the nearest toilet. His stomach was trying to claw a way up his throat, to turn itself inside out the way he’d seen from a frog in some video, stomach all out, Harry’s sexuality all out, right there for the world to see, and what, what, what even was this mess in his head?
Breathing hurt.

“I believe the world is burning to the groundOh well I guess we’re gonna find outLet’s see how far we’ve comeLet’s see how far we’ve comeWell, I believe it all is coming to an endOh well, I guess we’re gonna pretendLet’s see how far we’ve come”

2. Röyksopp - Go Away
Because right there—behind some bulky type of bodyguard and a lanky, quiffed bloke Louis knew from the news, walking next to James with his hands in his pockets… well. That was Prince Harry. 
Prince Harry. His Royal Highness Prince Harry Edward of Wales, second in line to the throne and unknown star of Louis’ teenage fantasies. 
Louis’ plans for the day had not included this. Jesus fucking Christ.
Prince Harry. Prince Harry was at the centre of a potential gay scandal. Prince Harry was gay, or at the very least bi-curious. Prince Harry was the kind of person who was open to paying off a blackmailer so as to protect his effortlessly privileged life from getting complicated.
Prince Harry was a royally spoilt brat. Pun intended.

“As I turn aroundYour face is in the paperYour voice is on the airOn all the stations laterYes you are everywhereAnd such ubiquityIt don’t mean shit to meJust wanna make it clearJust go away”

[Chapter 2]
3. OneRepublic - All The Right Moves
The tableau was completed when Louis hopped up onto the edge of the table, looking down at Johnson with his legs dangling, his cheerful attitude at odds with the thick tension that pressed in on the room. “So,” Louis said brightly. “Let’s talk about responsible gambling, shall we?”
 Johnson made a sudden move. Immediately, Liam’s hand came to rest on a spot that made Johnson groan and sag back into his seat.
“Ready?” Louis asked, just as brightly as before, perfectly unbothered by the interruption.

“Let’s paint the picture of the perfect placeThey’ve got it better than when anyone’s told yaThey’ll be the King of Hearts, and you’re the Queen of SpadesThen we’ll fight for you like we were your soldiers//It don’t matter what you seeI know I could never beSomeone that’ll look like you.It don’t matter what you sayI know I could never fakeSomeone that could sound like you”

[Chapter 3]
4. Sara Bareilles - Brave
“First off,” Louis spoke right over Harry’s attempt at an interruption, “you can come out at your own pace. Secondly, you can stay in the closet and date guys in secret, running the risk that someone will out you and you have no control over how it happens. Thirdly…” He glanced up to find Harry watching him intently, and it had him miss a beat. “Thirdly, you can dig yourself so deeply into the closet that there is no gay behaviour to discover. In other words, you can completely deny that part of yourself.”
Harry’s throat moved when he swallowed. “I don’t think I can do that.” He sounded deeply unhappy, gaze skittering away. “I don’t think I want to.”
“Well, you shouldn’t.” Folding up the list, Louis placed it between them and waited for Harry to meet his eyes. Only then did he continue. “All that aside… Harry, just imagine the impact someone like you could have. You told me it’s taken its toll on you, having to hide this thing. If you came out, don’t you think it might encourage some young people, show them that it’s nothing to be ashamed of? Even make it easier for them to find acceptance when they have such a prominent patron?”

“But I wonder what would happen if youSay what you wanna sayAnd let the words fall outHonestly, I wanna see you be braveWith what you want to sayAnd let the words fall outHonestly, I wanna see you be brave”

[Chapter 4]
5. Emeli Sandé - Read All About It, Pt. III
“Ten,” Louis said.
Harry sagged back in his chair and stared at the screen of Louis’ computer. The displayed article, written by James’ regular contact at The Sun, insinuated just enough to get the rumour mill started and test the waters without having to commit. Citing a fictitious source ‘very close to the Prince’, it was illustrated with a picture of Harry and Zayn, heads bent together as they laughed at something.
Louis cleared his throat. “Nine.”

“You’ve got the words to change a nationBut you’re biting your tongueYou’ve spent a lifetime stuck in silenceAfraid you’ll say something wrongIf no one ever hears it how we gonna learn your song?So come on, come onCome on, come on//I wanna sing, I wanna shoutI wanna scream ‘til the words dry outSo put it in all of the papersI’m not afraidThey can read all about itRead all about it, oh”

[Chapter 5]
6. Rebekka Karijord - Wear It Like A Crown
The day Harry checked his Twitter mentions was the day he washed up at Louis’ flat. At seven in the morning.

“It’s two steps forward, three steps back againI’ll turn my face against it, I won’t runCourage and belief are my redeemsNo one else can rescue me, it seems 
‘Cause if I don’t follow my heart this timeI’m gonna forget what this life is all aboutI’m gonna take that path, I’m going in on my ownI’m gonna take that fear and wear it like a crown”

[Chapter 6]
7. James Morrison - You Give Me Something
With Harry pressed all along his front, Louis could feel him take a deep, shuddering breath. Harry’s fingers curled into Louis’ t-shirt. Someone’s knee was digging into Louis’ side, but Louis barely noticed, too focused on Harry’s solid warmth, the weight of his body and his curls tickling Louis’ chin. Good God, Louis was so in love with him.
Wait, what the—no. No. Louis wasn’t. He couldn’t be. There was no way, no way, he could be in love with Harry. It was his past getting all tangled with the present, and if only he’d had a chance to take a step back and think, this would never even be an issue.

“I was meant to tread the waterBut now I’ve gotten in too deep For every piece of me that wants youAnother piece backs away 
You give me somethingThat makes me scared alrightThis could be nothingBut I’m willing to give it a tryPlease give me somethingBecause someday I might know my heart”

8. Lorde - Bravado
“It’s showtime, Shrimp,” Gemma announced, and—wait. Shit. The interview. Harry had just about forgotten.
He did want to go through with it. And he would.
Finding Gemma’s eyes, Harry worked up a grin, or something that should pass for a grin, anyway. Showtime. “Okay. Let’s do this, then?”

“’Cause I was raised upTo be admired to be noticedBut when you’re withdrawn it’s the closest thingTo assault when all eyes are on youThis will not do//I’m faking gloryLick my lips toss my hairAnd turn the smile onAnd the story’s brand-newBut I can take it from hereI’ll find my own bravado
It’s a switch flippedIt’s a pill tipped back, it’s a moon eclipsed, whoaAnd I can tell you that when the lights come on I’ll be ready for this

[Chapter 7]
9. James Arthur & Chasing Grace - Certain Things 
"I’d never reject him," Harry whispered. It felt heavy in a way he didn’t quite understand.

And you’re like the shoulder to turn to'Cause certain things mend us that's when we're hanging on for dear lifeWe held on so tight
And you keep coming back, coming back againKeep running round, running round, running round my head
And there’s certain things that I adoreAnd there’s certain things that I ignoreBut I’m certain that I’m yours

10. Tony Oller - Who’s Gonna Save Us (Gavin DeGraw Cover) 
I always want to kiss you, Louis’ brain echoed, always, always.
So he reached out to fit his fingers around Harry’s jaw, leaned in and waited three slow, anxious heart beats for Harry to stop him. Instead, Harry’s lips parted on a soft exhale, warm air shivering over Louis’ skin. He made no move to extract himself.

I got my own line of defenseSomehow you broke through it allAt the bottom of an empty bottleIs where the truth starts to spillDon’t wanna wake up with regretFrom this feeling we can’t kill
Who’s gonna saveWho’s gonna save us tonight, tonight?Who’s gonna saveWho’s gonna save us tonight, tonight?We’ve been way too cool for thisBut it’s just too strong to fightSo tell me who’s gonna saveWho’s gonna save us tonight?

11. Coldplay - A Sky Full Of Stars 
“Want to stay inside you forever,” Harry told him. As soon as it was out, he wished he could take it back. Too much, too soon, too bloody intense.
Louis blinked and focused back on Harry. Before he could ask a question Harry didn’t know how to answer just yet, Harry wrapped a hand around Louis’ cock, gave it a tight stroke in counterpoint to Louis’ next bounce.
Eyes sliding shut, Louis dropped his head, chin against his chest. “Want you to,” he mumbled, scarcely intelligible, and—oh.

I don’t care, go on and tear me apartI don’t care if you do, ooh'Cause in a sky, 'cause in a sky full of starsI think I saw you
'Cause you're a sky, 'cause you're a sky full of starsI wanna die in your arms'Cause you get lighter the more it gets darkI’m gonna give you my heart

[Chapter 8]
12. Passenger - What You’re Thinking (feat. Josh Pyke) 
Harry found it hard to remember Louis’ precise words. The thing he’d said about his teenage crush—had Harry jumped to conclusions? He’d been quick to accuse Louis of exorting some fantasy of the past, and Louis hadn’t corrected it. But did that mean it was true? Why had Louis stolen Harry’s shirt if he didn’t care at all?
God. Harry’s head was a mess. 

If I knew what you were thinkingI would stop this boat from sinkingBut darling you are like the sandAnd you’re slipping through my handsI just don’t know what you’re thinking

13. London Grammar - Strong 
After leaving Harry’s place, Louis had wandered aimlessly for… a while. He didn’t quite know how long it had been, only that it had been long enough for Liam to try calling him twice. Louis hadn’t picked up. Instead, he’d drifted with the crowds.

Excuse me for a whileWhile I’m wide-eyedAnd I’m so down caught in the middle//Yeah, I might seem so strongYeah, I might speak so longI’ve never been so wrong

14. Sia - Breathe Me 
“This is awful,” Louis told him. “Like, there’s absolutely no chance there. At all. And I just—Jesus fuck.” There was so much more he should say, but right now, he couldn’t. The words just wouldn’t come. 
Instead, he tugged on Liam’s wrist, and it took only a second before Liam got the hint. He moved in for a hug, and Louis sank into it. While he was holding on too tightly, Liam was kind enough not to complain.

Help, I have done it againI have been here many times beforeHurt myself again todayAnd the worst part is there’s no one else to blame
Be my friend, hold meWrap me up, unfold meI am small, and needyWarm me up, and breathe me

[Chapter 9]
15. Jasmine Thompson - Demons (Imagine Dragons Cover) 
“You do want me,” Harry said slowly, so quiet it only just bridged the gap between them. He looked as though he’d been broken open, caught halfway between disbelief and hope.
Louis inhaled and dropped his hand. His intestines had rearranged themselves into a messy bow. “How could I not?” 
“Then why?” Harry asked, a hint louder than before.

I want to hide the truthI want to shelter youBut with the beast insideThere’s nowhere we can hide//Don’t get too closeIt’s dark insideIt’s where my demons hide

16. Boyce Avenue feat. Carly Rose Sonenclar - Say Something (A Great Big World Cover) 
“You’re still holding something back. You’re always holding something back.” Harry exhaled, loud in the overwhelming stillness. “Do you want to know the difference between you and me? I’m scared, but I’m doing it anyway. You’re just scared.”

Say something, I’m giving up on youI’ll be the one, if you want me toAnywhere, I would’ve followed youSay something, I’m giving up on you

17. Justin Nozuka - Down In A Cold Dirty Well 
Blinking, Louis moved towards the bathroom and didn’t bother taking off his clothes before he stepped under the spray of the shower. Even though he turned the temperature up as far as it would go, he felt frozen to the core. 
He’d made the right decision. Hadn’t he?

My mind is spinning around and aroundI’m on my way down The louder I yellThe deeper I sinkCloser to hell Far from my instincts // Dig me my grave, cause I won’t be savedI won’t be saved so dig me my graveDown in a cold dirty well and I cannot climb out

[Chapter 10]
18. Matt Costa - Wash Away 
“So do I,” Harry whispered. “I wish it could be easy.”
I wish I could rewrite my history for you, Louis thought. Very lightly, he shook his head and made himself turn away, could barely force out a quiet, “Tell Liam I’ll be waiting in the car, please.”
Harry let him go without a sound. Louis didn’t know why he’d expected different.

But bright lights have blinded your sightsThey can’t adjust when day turns to nightAnd so you watched me wash awayBut maybe we’ll catch up someday
The castles we built were so tallThey only left us further to fallAnd still I see them far awayBut maybe we’ll come back somedayMaybe we’ll come back someday

19. Charlene Soraia - Wherever You Will Go (The Calling Cover) 
Louis squeezed out words past the choking sensation which had gripped his throat. The car felt claustrophobic. “He’ll get over it.”
Liam was quiet for several seconds, studying Louis with a heavy gaze. When he spoke, it was uncommonly solemn. “Yeah. Eventually, he will. But do you realise what that means? He’s the country’s sweetheart, mate. If he gets over you—when he does, at some point…” He shook his head. “You won’t be able to escape. It’ll be all over the papers, him with someone else. Are you ready for that? Seeing him smile at someone else, kiss someone else—”
“Stop,” Louis broke in. He couldn’t fit enough air into his lungs. “Stop.” 

So lately, been wonderingWho will be there to take my placeWhen I’m gone, you’ll need loveTo light the shadows on your faceIf a great wave shall fallIt would fall upon us allAnd between the sand and stoneCould you make it on your own?
If I could, then I wouldI’ll go wherever you will goWay up high or down lowI’ll go wherever you will go

20. Shawn McDonald - Gravity 
He’d broken Harry’s heart, and maybe it had been about himself once, but this wasn’t just about him anymore. It was about Harry. God, how had Louis believed that he was protecting Harry when all he’d ever done was hurt him? 
If Harry didn’t want Louis after learning the truth—then at least Louis had given him a choice.

I don’t want to fall away from youGravity is pulling me on downI don’t want to fall away from youGravity is pulling me to the ground
This world keeps making me cryBut I’m going to try, going to try to fly, going to fly high

Fic: Wear It Like A Crown (10/12)

Harry/Louis (background: Liam/Zayn, past Harry/Zayn as friends-with-benefits, Niall/Barbara)
~11’000 words for Chapter 10, ~99k so far, an estimate ~120k words overall

AU. As part of a team of fixers hired to handle a gay scandal in Buckingham Palace, Louis expects Prince Harry to be a lot of things—most notably a royally spoilt brat. Never mind that the very same Prince Harry used to star in quite a number of Louis’ teenage fantasies.

[Part 1] [Part 2] [Part 3] [Part 4] [Part 5] [Part 6]
[Part 7] [Part 8] [Part 9] [Part 10]

[On one page]

[Soundtrack on 8tracks] and notes below the cut.

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stylinsonbubble replied to your post: (I don’t usually do memes, but I was t…

ehem.. editing Chapter 10 you say? … so there is a bit of tiny chance we get to read it THIS Friday… a bit self-centered, I know, but I’m addicted to your fictions and your writing :P PS: A lovely song list there. Guano Apes. Hell yeah!

Chapter 10 is in the works and will go up soon. Otherwise, it would have been a two-week gap. :)

nobetterbumthantomlinson replied to your post: (I don’t usually do memes, but I was t…

so nice!! (though i’ll tell anyone who listens to NatW that) do you listen to the gaslight anthem and the national?

Yes to both! My music collection is… pretty damn vast. I have a premium subscription to Spotify! And High Violet is one of my favourite albums of all time. 

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(I don’t usually do memes, but I was tagged by sadamenoito and I love her, and I’m also procrastinating when I should be packing and trying to edit Chapter 10.)

You can tell a lot about someone by the type of music they listen to. Hit shuffle on your ipod/phone/itunes/media player and write down the first 20 songs.

  1. Noah and the Whale - L.I.F.E.G.O.E.S.O.N
  2. Guano Apes - Open Your Eyes
  3. Birdy - White Winter Hymnal
  4. Blink-182 - Dumpweed
  5. Jack Johnson - As I Was Saying
  6. Olson - James Dean
  7. Sara Bareilles - Love Song
  8. Metric - Nothing But Time
  9. Phoenix - Lisztomania
  10. Daniel Bedingfield - Gotta Get Thru This (Acoustic Version)
  11. Death Cab For Cutie - A Lack Of Color
  12. Athlete - Never Running Out
  13. Sia  - Big Girls Cry
  14. John Mayer - Your Body Is A Wonderland
  15. The Killers - Bones
  16. The Damnwells - Soundtrack
  17. One Direction - Does He Know?
  18. Bob Marley & The Wailers - Redemption Song
  19. Owl City - Fireflies
  20. Y’Akoto - Without You

Not sure what this says about me, other than that my music collection is erratic. Which is true. Anyone who wants to do it, go forth and spread the musical joy!

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why are the other boys so rude to Harry and Louis???


why do they (mostly liam) keep doing these things when they KNOW they’ve broken up?

"lol Louis remember that meal you made for Harry god that sure was special to you guys but yikes I can’t imagine you want to keep telling that story now that you’ve broken up anyway how about that meal eh?"


"lol Louis remember when you used to taste Harry all the time and now you don’t damn that probably sucks anyway what flavor is he"


"lol Louis I’m totally going to get back at you for messing with me by messing with Harry instead because YOU CAN’T ANYMORE HAHAHAHAHAHA"


"lol remember when Harry DID cheat on you how hilarious was THAT"


"lol guys remember how lots of people think you’re going to get married but you’re totally not because you broke up anyway haha weyhey"



the only reasonable conclusion here is that all the boys hate each other

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Why would Louis nominate Prince Harry?? Does he even know him at all?



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